Thursday, September 17, 2015

Red X on iPod Classic Problem Solution

This week I fixed my ipod classic by slamming it onto a table, and yes you read that correctly I slammed my ipod onto the table and it rebooted. The story behind this is that I tried to reboot my ipod and it got stuck on this screens:

For a month. So after talking to the apple support people and them making me feel like I had the anomaly of iPod's I went on a search throughout the internet, and that's when I found the solution in the deepest corner of the internet. On I found this solution:

Did I believe it at first? No I was extremely skeptical and I though TreyDollarz was trolling me, but after looking to the 98 responses and seeing that it had worked for the majority of the 98 people I thought I had nothing to lose. Naturally I started slamming it everywhere.

I slammed it on:
The palm of my hand
The table
Cement floor
The floor

I decided that maybe it need to be slammed harder than I was, and that is when I enlisted my brother's help as I was explaining to him that I needed to slam my ipod port to the bottom on a table I slammed it on one of the desks at Uni, and it worked. The ipod rebooted, and I was shocked. I kept saying: 

"Oh my Goth it fucking worked!'

My brother was extremely skeptical about the solution as well and was equally shocked to find that the solution to my ipod problem had worked. So far my iPod seems to be working well.


Tuesday, August 25, 2015

First love

I started school this week and its a relief for me, because it gets me out of the house for a while. I am annoyed with a lot of stuff that's going on in my life. Mostly I am getting to a point in my life where I am trying to separate myself from the people in my life since as you guys have gathered really don't care, and its sad to say the following but in this world you have to look out for yourself, and as I've discovered recently its okay to be selfish, its actually best to be selfish in order to get yourself ahead, because in the end all you have is you. I once got a fortune cookie a few years back that said:

"First love and last love self love."

At the time I didn't know what a journey this fortune would send me through. A lot of people made fun of me for the message I received in the cookie, but it was hard for me to be selfish at the time, now however as lonely and upsetting as it sounds I have to move on, and not look back. I spent so much of my life and productivity looking back, and holding myself back that I forgot about my well being. I've come to terms that I might stay alone the rest of my life, and I'm starting to accept that. I am also starting to come to terms that I'll be okay if I move on but I can't stay doing the same thing over and over again, and repeating history with different variables because I know that the outcome will never be the same.

I started making changes in my life. I hacked off my hair. I cut off a foot of hair, and I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I don't know why I didn't do it sooner.


Right after I did it last week!

I did go to a salon to get it dyed and straightened out, and I felt great about myself because I had done it for myself. I like the change because it doesn't hold me down as much as long hair did hold me down aesthetically. I think I look great and in turn that makes me feel great. My best friend had been telling me that I would be fine if I cut it off and last week she finally convinced me and held my hand while I did it. Best . Decision. Ever.
I am also actively applying to schools to transfer to and the farther away they are the better for me. I like the idea of starting over with a new mentality and that's coming up soon so I look forward to it.


Monday, July 20, 2015

Movie Review Of "The Skin I Live In" (2011)

The Skin I Live In
Director: Pedro Andomar

Keeping up with my psychological movie thing I have going; the following movie has been described as "a horror movie without the screams." However I don't agree with that description. I find that this movie is extremely similar to Helter Skelter (2012) except this movie deals with things happening to the antagonist by the protagonist.

Dr. Robert (Antonio Banderas) has a series of unfortunate events happen to him, and this movie deals with how he deals with the things that happen to him. Antonio Banderas plays a plastic surgeon whose wife Gal (Elena Anaya) was in a car accident where she was badly burned but being the object of his obsession he takes her to his house where he hides all of the mirrors and they live in darkness until his wife Gal (Elena Anaya) one faithful day hears her daughter sing a song that she taught her and accidentally sees whats left of herself and has a reaction to commit suicide. Gal lands dead in front of their daughter Norma (Ana Mena) and this has severe consequences on Norma's social life and she can't have a normal social life.  But during this time Dr. Robert throws himself obsessively to work on a skin that is durable enough to not get burned, or have a mosquito bites, but still soft enough to touch. He is immersed deeply into his work.
One day Dr. Robert takes his daughter Norma to a party and is shocked to find that she is having a good time. This party is crucial to the storyline because this party changes the plot entirely. In this party Norma is raped by Vicente (Jan Cornet) a dressmaker. Dr. Robert finds Norma after the rape and she associates Dr. Robert who is her father as the person who raped her even though he was the one who found her. This fact is revealed when Dr. Robert goes to visit Norma at the mental hospital. Norma develops a fear and hatred of all men.
Dr. Robert finds Vicente and kidnaps him one day after his shift at the dress shop, and makes Vicente his prisoner. When Norma dies Dr. Robert unleashes all of his anger against Vicente, and drugs him then gives him a vaginalplasty to Vicente's horror. Dr. Robert slowly starts turning Vicente into Gal, and gives him the skin he was working on.
There is a lot more of the storyline as well, but I narrowed it down significantly from my original review where I think I wrote down the entire movie. The storyline is very Tarantino where it starts in the end moves the story to the beginning  goes to the middle of the story then ends at the end. Also the story moves from perspectives constantly as the story unravels with Robert.

Well Antonio Banderas reminded me a lot of his character Armand in Interview with a Vampire (1994) Dark, Emotionless, but with easy personality switches. I don't think it was necessarily because both the characters of Robert and Armand were the same because they aren't. I think it was their similarities that reminded me of each other. Antonio Banderas as an actor has many layers he can go either way making complex to read.
Elena Anaya  evolved really well as her characters developed with the storyline. Her role as Vera and Gal were really complicated to act in because they were so different. These roles force you to think deeper  every time there is a twist in the storyline, and as an actor that is hard to interpret. This is my first time seeing this actress and I'm very impressed with the way she portrayed this role.
I also would like to commend Jan Cornet also did a very good job considering that the majority of things that happened to his character is not easy to evolve with.

Directing choices + the way the movie was made
The lighting reminded me of Miami deco architecture. The colors were bright but dimly lit, and I like this directors choice.  However I think the mood was portrayed well through the scenes and I was lost in the storyline and in the illusion of the movie. The complexity and depth was there and I think that I like how complex it was and how it makes you think but not to the point where after the movie you are still thinking of how it ended  because the ending was satisfying. The ending answers all of your questions the storyline comes full circle and I highly recommend it. It is in Spain Spanish so its a little hard to understand sometimes so I recommend subtitles.

I have a lot more reviews to post up I have them written down in my notebook and I will type them up soon.


Friday, July 3, 2015

Space Travel

I've been dealing with a lot recently, but I feel so tired, and its not like a tired that I am used to where I just don't have a reason to wake up for. This sounds bizarre but I am tired of pretending I have a reason to wake up, so I don't wake up. The other day I visited this city, and I felt like there was so much potential for me there. Then I found a reason to wake up. Unfortunately I wasn't there that long, and when I came back to where I am staying I had a fever, and spent my week binge watching House. But I've been so tired physically, and mentally tired, and I'm trying to understand why but I don't and none of this paragraph makes sense. I'm going out of town again tomorrow, and I'm indifferent about it. At first I thought it was because there was a remote possibility that I was homesick, but I realize now that I'm not homesick at all. I don't miss where I live at all, and there are really no reasons for me to return. Maybe I was right all along, and I've outgrown where I live. -Fatima

Thursday, June 25, 2015


I apologize for not updating just had a family member pass away this Sunday we're dealing with funeral and such. Will be back when it's done. -Fatima

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Friday, June 19, 2015


It's been raining the past two weeks, and not the light drizzle that just passes by. It has been pouring with a force that can't be reckoned with. Oddly enough the rain is satisfying me I wake up to the rain, and I sleep to the sound of the rain hitting the window. I have been confused for a while now. Something happened that I'm not at too much liberty to say, but it was something that I never thought would happen, but at the same time I have an uneasy feeling about it all, and after asking five online fortune tellers, that have given me good answers in the past, and a magic eight ball I was sure that something was not right in all of it, and it has all given me a huge headache to be completely honest. I'm not really built to take on so much, and as many of my friends have said I; "open myself completely to drama," or "It's like you look for the drama in the little things in your life when it's not as exaggerate or dramatic as you make it seem." It must be true if multiple people said it, but at the same time if I exaggerate something it's because I feel that it is that intense, or big of a situation. I do not actively look for drama it just tends to find me and I tend to not know how to react to it so the situation misleads into it looking like I welcomed it when in reality I didn't know how to react to it.

I make a terrible person. There should be a handbook on how to deal with everything, and how to go about things. Life would be a lot more structured that way. When I talk to someone different and I tell them about my life and stuff that goes on in it they react like what I am doing is completely wrong or I've been living a lie or something. I don't think people realize that everyone is different. Do not get me wrong it's always implied that everyone's lives are different however it is not an applied technique that people use. Which is why I say there should be a handbook about these things kind of like when parents or people generally say; "Well I don't know its not like you came with instructions," either as an excuse to get out of a fight with you, or to justify a mistake, or to justify simply not knowing. Why don't we come with a generalized handbook on how to deal with different situations. Such as in my case there would be a section called: "How to deal with being to dramatic and to conform to social constructions referred to as 'norms'." [Insert serious emoji.] Or maybe there should be one on; "how to build constructive relations known as 'friends' and how to maintain them." I hope you all are feeling the passive aggressive in me in this last paragraph. People find things you are confident in and try to bring you down. If I enjoy telling a tale of something that happened to me in a dramatic fashion, with exaggerate details that's how I feel and I am not going to become the social construct of normal in order to satisfy others perception of me. Can you imagine how boring I would be without everything that makes me me? I might be a fool who believes that mermaids exist, and I might be a fool who has been talking exclusively to a stuffed alpacca the last two weeks, but I am satisfied with who I am. I don't feel ashamed that I am a dramatic person in my reactions, or that I am expressive in the way I say things, and I am not going to justify that I enjoy who I am because of some dark passive childhood thing that happened to me. Yes I grew up in an emotionally abusive place, and yes I am passive aggressive, and yes I have a need to express myself in an exaggerate manner, but I am honest about everything really except when I'm scared shitless of something and even then you can tell that I am lying because I am a terrible liar. If there is a handbook on how I should think and act to fit social constructions of norms then count me out of that mindset, and let me go live in the woods somewhere where I don't have to follow these things.

I'm actually very serious about the Alpacca thing I have been speaking to the alpacca for two weeks now, because I'm quite bored where I am, and the majority of the time my computer is dead for some unknown reason, or I am about to get an anxiety attack and since the alpacca can't call me crazy I like talking to it mainly because it will never talk back to me (I hope.) It's nice to have someone listen who doesn't have ulterior evil motives to fit it's evil little alpacca plan to take over the world or something. Really don't mind me I am just losing it.